I know I have tons of hormones going on in me right from just having Presley, but I serious broke yesterday. On the outside, my husband probably thought I was pretty crazy. During our hospital stay, Presley became pretty jaundice so they put her on lights overnight. Her numbers came back fine the next day and they allowed us to go home on Tuesday, but wanted us to have her retested on Thursday. I was noticing that something just wasn't right with our little Presley. She slept literally all the time, I even had to wake her up for feedings. So on Thursday I was more than happy to get her retestesd. At around 2 pm, my doctor gave me a call and told me I needed to get her down to the hospital as soon as I could cuz her level was up to 19.2 (20-30 being critical). I think it was at that point I just lost it and started balling. I wasn't really so much worried about her health, since it was only jaundice and could be easily fixed. My drama was that I just couldnt get anything done at home and now here I am again having my in laws watch my kids. Dont get me wrong they have done awesome, but they haven't been giving Journey her naps and the two days I was home, getting her to take a nap was a nightmare. So now here we go again with another 2 days of her probably not getting a nap, which could mean all together she just might not take them anymore, I need her to take her naps! On top of that, my a/c has been broken forever! I tried to have it fix and this guy from our church came out and fixed it, but it would keep popping fuses, so he would fix something else, and then something else, needless to say we are out of money for that a/c and nothing really got solved. On top of that we had carpet put in on Wednesday and I was admitted into the hospital that next day, so putting anything way from getting the carpet hasn't happened and my house is a complete disaster! On top of that, Presley being 4 weeks early I hadn't had the chance to go grocery shopping so making a meal or anything else has been difficult and I haven't been able to make it to the store since. And on top of that, all of Presley's clothes, blankets and so forth are in storage and Brent and I haven't been able to get those out and get them washed. And one more on top of that, our carseat is old and we need another one. We thought we could get by with it with one more kid, but the hospital said that it was bit old and we should get another one. So my stress level is 0! My mom is in Big Bear and can't come down until Wednesday. I am needing her more than ever right now.
Now that I am in the hospital with Presley, who knows when I will get it all done. They aren't at all too happy that I am here, the nurses that is. They can't understand why I am staying the day and night with her! Really?! They can't understand why I want to be with my daughter?! First of all I am breastfeeding, I don't want to supplement with formula and why should I when I can breastfeed her. They suggested I pump, but I dont get as much from pumping as I do from her, so why would I even dare to take that risk of me drying out from lack of producing enough. Seriously, I feel like I am totally in the way, but the way I look at it I am making there job one hell of alot easier. I am changing her diapers, I am taking her temperature, I am feeding her, when she cries I am attending to her. All they have to do is make sure her IV is going great and weigh her diapers. If anything you would think they would be appreciative that I was here. Whatever, I am staying, although it sucks, I must admit. No TV, sleeping in a recliner in a teeny room that I can't be on the phone in or eat or drink in, but I will do whatever for my Presley. I know she likes me being her too.